This disillusionment this haziness makes me wonder, Was there ever a purpose or have I just lost it now ? That alacrity seems to have vanished, Purpose disappeared and my being famished. Is there a reason that reason wants me to find ? The forces are evading, nothing seems to unwind Never had this feeling of not having a purpose before Bouncing in the waves, not knowing where to find the shore.. This is no sadness this is no pain What do I call it when it doesn't matter whether I lose or gain Moments ago, what I was losing mattered and the stakes were high No longer is this the case and I don't know why ??????